Organization

Organization is a funny thing. It is something we all strive for and desire - on some level we all want to be on top of things. I certainly always have, but it was never truly something I posessed. The longer I have been home with the boys, the more I have realized that it is a total necessity if I am to remain a sane, functioning member of society. So, I drew up plans, made schedules and tried a few things here and there. And folks, I do believe yesterday was a breakthrough! The day unfolded as it should, scheduled tasks were completed. All the effort and planning and discipline of the last few months came into fruition and Aaron and I found ourselves sitting there, stunned, at 8:00 PM in a quiet, clean home with no clue as what to do next. We were completely befuddled, flummoxed, even. Such an event had not occurred in ages. Granted, we had been building toward this moment with days and nights of ever increasing resolve and follow-through and adherence to a schedule. But to see it all pay off and to have actually done what we set out to do was just marvelous and oddly enough, totally unexpected!

I suppose this might seem like a strange post, a rather random thing to be so awed by. But this new knowledge that I can be home with two kids all day and not be crazy and cranky and surrounded by chaos (the three c's!) - that I can actually relax a bit and enjoy my children - is liberating! My sisters (deservedly) have all been waiting for this moment (smugly, I think, even if in secret!) - for me to say that being a mom is so hard and such a challenge. I had many days where I just didn't think I could do it or, well - just didn't want to do it anymore. I am happy to report that I haven't had a day like that in ages and I am really enjoying my new life.

A new revelation comes even as I write this: this is the happiest I have ever been!

Now, if you will excuse me, my boys are waiting for me. :o)